I must confess, I am a total weirdo. Maybe you noticed. It used to make me feel insecure when I was younger. Friends would call me a wild child, silly, weird, way too emotional, too sexual and…different. I was the girl dancing on tables, wearing feathers in my hair, getting the first tattoo of my friends and crying or laughing too hard. I have always felt like I am too much. Like I have to tame the wild thing in me to be loved. Be more normal. To fit in. And sometimes I would fake it being normal, but it made me miserable. Censoring myself so I wouldn’t let my wild child/ weirdness spill out was like trying to keep the lid on a pot boiling over on the stove. It was exhausting; I would dash home to recuperate from putting on that act. I was holding back what makes me unique. We are all different and what is different makes us beautiful. There is only one of us in all of time. There is a freedom in being your authentic self. My New Year’s Resolution is: to not only accept this part of me, but celebrate how different I am. Who wants to be wild, different, unique, weird and let their freak flag fly (or wave your glitter wand) with me in 2017?
Posted on Wed, January 4, 2017
by Ms. Dolphina filed under