I am many things: a bellydancer, a cat & dog mom, a boho gypsy, a champion of women, a nature hippie chick, lover of life and I am also a cutter.

I am many things: a bellydancer, a cat & dog mom, a boho gypsy, a champion of women, a nature hippie chick, lover of life and I am also a cutter.

Warning: graphic and honest!
I am many things: a bellydancer, a cat & dog mom, a boho gypsy, a champion of women, a nature hippie chick, lover of life and I am also a cutter. Yes, as much as I’ve focused on healing my past traumas and abuse, I still struggle with self harm. This started long ago. My Father used to burn me with cigars. God bless his soul, he suffered much in his life; finding his own Mother at sixteen after she committed suicide.
We all struggle with finding our way out of the dark forest. We all must blaze our own trail out of where we can become lost. What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. I truly believe that we must find our own way out of the dark forest. Together. I find solace and strength in other women who have turned adversity into their own brand of resilience, magic and outrageous moxy.
Here is to those women who inspire us, who have walked through fire, who don’t ever forget that they are a Goddess.
Here is to us who are still suffering, reaching for the light, for our own strength to change. To find a way to let the past become truly the past and forage our own way to becoming who we were born to be.


 

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1. wrote:
When you feel like things are out of control, this is something, a pain you can control. Thank you always for your honesty ♡ Namaste

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:45 AM

2. Dolphina and Goddess Life wrote:
Anne Day - yes absolutely how I feel.LOVE YOU!!!

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:46 AM

3. Jennifer Deppenschmidt wrote:
Thank you for being authentic and open but most of all thank you for your bravery. I honor you and send you love, light and healing energy

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:47 AM

4. Claudia Crochet wrote:
That was very brave of you to admit. I have also dealt with self harm in the past and still struggle with it. I fight it, though...sometimes it's hard. I love ya Dolphina. I hope you are well. Xo

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:48 AM

5. Dolphina and Goddess Life wrote:
Claudia Crochet - thank you ever so much for sharing your struggles. I do believe together we can make a change. Please keep in touch xoxoxo

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:49 AM

6. Brittany Padma Davis wrote:
*hugs* Your honesty is touching. I also struggle with cutting and you have my undying love and support. Here's to us healing and to the future.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:51 AM

7. Dolphina and Goddess Life wrote:
Brittany Padma Davis - thank you ever so much! AND yes let's to healing. we can do it!!!

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:52 AM

8. Kelly-Sue O'Connor wrote:
Peace to you Dolphina. I can relate. I hope sharing is part of your healing. I know it is for me. xo

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:53 AM

9. Dolphina and Goddess Life wrote:
Kelly-Sue O'Connor - yes my sweet. please please keep in touch xo

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:54 AM

10. Sharon Krywosa wrote:
Sending peace and love to you <3<3<3

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:56 AM

11. Rhani Zerimar wrote:
I understand 100%

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:56 AM

12. Dolphina and Goddess Life wrote:
Rhani Zerimar - you have no idea how much I adore you!

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:57 AM

13. Rhani Zerimar wrote:
Dolphina and Goddess Life you saved me. I owe my life to you.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:58 AM

14. Jessy McLean wrote:
❤ so brave.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 8:59 AM

15. Juliana Powels-Crouch wrote:
Love you, my friend. I give you strength and love

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:00 AM

16. Rory Vargas Schutt wrote:
I love you so much for sharing this. Your workouts have given me and so many women a constructive way to channel our energies. Hugs, love and great thanks for all you do. 💜

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:01 AM

17. Katya Faris wrote:
Sending big love 🌈 💘 💕

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:01 AM

18. Elena Lewis wrote:
You've always been a huge inspiration to me, and you are so brave for sharing this. There's mine. There were 7 total. Last one I cut too deep. The balloon is a symbol of my struggle with bipolar.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:02 AM

19. Dolphina and Goddess Life wrote:
that is so so beautiful! I want to get a tattoo too

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:04 AM

20. Elena Lewis wrote:
The quote is actually tattooed over several of the smaller scars. It hurt so bad, but was worth it. I forgot how many of them there were. ; for suicide awareness. Quote because I love Harry Potter and it was fitting. A new chapter of my life opened that day. A big one closed.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:04 AM

21. Kelly June Hutcheson wrote:
Bless you Dear Dolphina. Hugs. and Love.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:05 AM

22. Karen Potter Fields wrote:
You are so very brave, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:06 AM

23. Karen Potter Fields wrote:
Our past will never determine our future and thank goodness. My moment was when I just couldn't take anymore and I just wanted to give in, I dropped to my knees and begged for guidance. Then the good Lord started placing people in my life and you were one of them. So many of us suffer quietly and when we allow others into our souls is when we can begin to heal spiritually and emotionally. We all absolutely adore you and by you being so open just makes me adore you more.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:09 AM

24. Nicole Clinedinst wrote:
You are very brave for sharing. When someone as amazing as you are shares something so raw and candid I am sure that you are giving others who need the strength to start a dialog. You are not alone!

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:11 AM

25. Caramia Hunter-Hope wrote:
my level of respect for you has become deeper

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:12 AM

26. Alla Goldman wrote:
Takes balls to share something like this!!!Past doesn't determine the future but it's what made you who you are and that's why you are such an inspiration. The last word on your 1st video is "peace ". Hope you can find it. We all send you love💕🌹

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:13 AM

27. Alory Vargas Schutt wrote:
I understand how you have sympathy and love for your dad too, even though he could be cruel. My dad was the same way, and sometimes people don't understand how you can still love and forgive someone who hurt you. We definitely struggle, for life. The love is there though. You are beautiful.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:14 AM

28. Lacie Gwinn wrote:
Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. I hope you find the peace you deserve. ❤️

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:15 AM

29. Kirsten Delal wrote:
Aaaw thank you for sharing. I totally relate. I struggle too.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:16 AM

30. Venus Theresa wrote:
That was so brave of you. Thank you so much for sharing such a naked thing. I'm so moved.

I won't be on here telling you to just stop or telling you that you're too beautiful to hurt yourself. You are though.

I used to burn my arms with sewing needles. I get it. And I've struggled with bulimia since I was a teenager. Sometime hurting yourself is the only way you can feel control.

I get it.

Please know that you can message me any time you need someone to talk. I'm always here for you. Thank you so much again for sharing such an amazing thing. You are truly inspiring.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:17 AM

31. Michelle Arntson wrote:
Thank you for sharing something so personal and painful. Much 💘 love

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:18 AM

32. Patricia Bray Janney wrote:
Prayers from my heart for peace. Life's challenges take a piece of us that cannot be replaced but mourned as we move along our path.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:19 AM

33. Alicia Duncan Coulter wrote:
r ❤️😘❤️💃🏻

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:20 AM

34. Jamilee Mersaiah Skoyen wrote:
Beautiful and raw. I used to cut and self harm during middle school and a few years ago got my first tattoo, which mimicked the feeling. It was an amazing experience to see everything that hadn't yet been healed within myself. I have no doubt that you can concur this and be one with the light. Sending you never ending goddess love heart emoticon

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:21 AM

35. Danielle Erdman wrote:
Thank you for sharing. The more people share their stories, the more we chip away at stigma. No one should suffer in silence.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:23 AM

36. Susan Morrison wrote:
I cannot explain exactly what draws me to you, but your vulnerability might be it! I have not met you, but I would love to! You are a goddess indeed! Of light, love, beauty and courage. Just in case you have not done this ... go outside on a dark night, when the sky is filled with a bazillion stars - there is this weird feeling of being significant and insignificant all at the same time - but I would also like you to know that I believe each of those stars symbolizes some soul you have touched with your very own crazy beautiful magic! and mine is one of them heart emoticon

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:24 AM

37. Janet August wrote:
Appreciate your honesty

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:24 AM

38. Dawn Gigi wrote:
Love you Dolphina heart emoticon

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:25 AM

39. Melati Egiwina wrote:
My ex husband told me I have daddy issue (im easy to get jealous after found my father got second wife) and crazy and bipolar. And he did violence to me while we still married. I'm still trying and learn to understand life. Divorced,Got two adorable sons and kitten, I'm ready to reaching the light. Thanks for sharing

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:26 AM

40. Val Comenout wrote:
Blessings to you during your difficult times.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:27 AM

41. Claire Beech wrote:
You have truly inspired me through your belly dance DVDs and have made me a confident lady again (a goddess) thank you so much for making me beautiful again.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:27 AM

42. Ava Brown wrote:
Sending Hugs, love, and light to guide the way...

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:29 AM

43. Marci Johnson wrote:
Oh my love... my beautiful dolphin...

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:30 AM

44. Amie Nogrady wrote:
You are a dancing light of inspiration in a dark sky. You twinkle like a star, sometimes brighter and near enough to touch and sometimes faded and so far that we fear you might be gone. But you shine on. We see you there. We see you, the moon and I. We watch you even when you can't feel the shine. We see it. We see you shine.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:30 AM

45. Michelle Coles wrote:
We are all your Tribe. Thank you for letting us help carry you and for trusting us.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:31 AM

46. Marci Johnson wrote:
Stop hurting yourself my love! You are beautiful and deserve to be cherished!

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:39 AM

47. Cynthia Dickman wrote:
With each intimate detail you share of your life a person's life is changed. You have the gift of empowering women by showing them they are not alone in their struggles. Please take care of yourself. Be kind and gentle to your beautiful soul. You are valuable my friend.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:40 AM

48. Linda Alsdorf Brancato wrote:
I have no words to take away your struggle...all I can say is I love you and all your flaws... my wish for you is that you learn to release your pain and heal your heart.

Sat, May 28, 2016 @ 9:41 AM

49. Danielle McCoy wrote:
Your honesty is breath taking! You continue to show your inner beauty as well as your outer. I first found you years ago via belly dancing and fell in love. I always feel joy when I see you pop up in my email. May warmth and Light surround you, even during those painful times; especially during the painful times. Thank you for sharing! 💕💕💕

Sun, May 29, 2016 @ 10:37 AM

50. Mel wrote:
Thank you for sharing that. Me too. I did it for years until I read an article about a person who decided that their narrative was describing their action as madness. Being a Pisces, I was really afraid of becoming mad, so I stopped. I have had moments of the feelings that brought me to that stage happen again, I realize they aren't feelings but toxic people. Once I got them out of my life, I have never looked back. But thats a pisces story of sucking in other peoples negativity. I do want to say thank you for everything you have taught me with your bellydance lessons. It unleashed an amazing health when I was consistent and enacted it everyday. I went from size 16 to 10 and looked like a model. Abusive parents...no need to make excuses, it seems more toxic to go on and pretend it was ok or that it was because of their life drama as we take credit from those who have had the same life drama and chosen to do the right thing, be the change that they wish to see in the world and became the parents they wish they had. Sometimes it is not up to us to foretell or retell the narrative of others. It is only up to us to chose consciously to never redo what was done to us. To end that chain of pain. To cut the cord with what we do to others and ourselves.

Thu, June 2, 2016 @ 7:35 AM

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